I don't know how to start but I hope that I won't confuse you. I am a transsexual girl who is turning eighteen in September. Since my whole family is transphobic, I have been through a lot. I tried to focus on positive things, so I decided to set three goals that are really important to me.
Here are my goals:
1. I want to speak many languages like native speakers.
2. I want to become a conference interpreter.
3. I want to become a woman.
Unfortunately, my self-esteem is not the best. I think that I am not good enough to fulfill my dreams. I have already tried to commit suicide and I self-harm. I don't want to be rich or become a writer. Those three dreams are the only ones I really want to fulfill. I don't even want to be in a relationship, nor do I want a family.
Also, I think that I may be too old and that my mother tongue (Hungarian) may prevent me from fulfilling my dreams.
I know that this sounds stupid. But Hungarian is so different from other languages.
Should I just throw in the towel and commit suicide?
Here are my goals:
1. I want to speak many languages like native speakers.
2. I want to become a conference interpreter.
3. I want to become a woman.
Unfortunately, my self-esteem is not the best. I think that I am not good enough to fulfill my dreams. I have already tried to commit suicide and I self-harm. I don't want to be rich or become a writer. Those three dreams are the only ones I really want to fulfill. I don't even want to be in a relationship, nor do I want a family.
Also, I think that I may be too old and that my mother tongue (Hungarian) may prevent me from fulfilling my dreams.
I know that this sounds stupid. But Hungarian is so different from other languages.
Should I just throw in the towel and commit suicide?