I've been so single that I can't even explain .
Going anonymous for some reasons.
Well let's take you all long back when I wasn't single and girlfriends were like cup of tea and I was enjoying . I was thin, had nice haircut and basically cared about my looks and dressing style. I have huryed alot of girls saying “you don't look good” “you are black “ !
I'm not a racist but the Ego I had didn't knew would pay me off in such way. I didn't knew I was hurting my image by saying these words , disrespecting girls etc.
I wasn't always this let me take you back when I had my first relationship , I loved her she cheated on me.
First relationship spoiled my 12th board results , started drinking.
Second relationship, a typical sardarni girl she cheated on me and made me a animal. I didn't knew how to survive , I loved her alot!
And then there was the turn of events , A man changed into an animal abused her , spoiled rumours and then started dating many girls just for fun and sex.
And now you can continue reading from phase 2!
4 years later
I have 2-3 friends to talk , my batchmates don't talk to me nor do I as they see me as a bad boy who doesn't respects girls just uses them! I have nobody to talk. So I just travel alone , make enough money to roam around but back when I come home every night or some nights at hotels when I'm alone and not drunk I feel lonely. I don't want to be single but everyone knows how bad I am! It's like a fire spread all around the city.
So what do I do ?
I pay tinder and change my location to Delhi, Mumbai or Kolkata I do get some response but still I drink and I can't control my anger . I don't know what made me so my breakups or alcohol!
I search girls on olx posting ad , pay them in advance on paytm so that they can just talk to me and maybe I can get a good friend.
Would love if someone could help me out with some solutions.