I dont want to live very long. I'm quite scared of being left alone. I am an introvert but i honestly dont want to be the last one to go. It's quite sad to be left alone in this world, i mean i don't know if i'd be left alone or not, i might have grandkids or something, but the thought of it kinda makes me sad. Plus, being old seems so stressful, not only for me but for everyone around me. I don't want to burden people with my sickness (we all know old age comes with lots of different kinds of sickness). I don't want to be the reason their energies and life are getting sucked out of them.
Man, this question just made me sad. I am now picturing myself getting rejected by my children and grandkids because they can't handle me anymore, they can't handle my sickness and old age anymore. And i am picturing them in the kitchen while i sit in the living room talking to each other about me, pointing at each other who should take me. Oh gosh, this is one depressing question.