Nothing at all separated from your idiocy. I mean when you realize that somebody is good to go to destroy you and your joy and likely has effectively done that ,still assuming you are blindly enamored with them ,that isn't an accomplishment. Nothing to be pleased with truly. You are simply depicting how frail an individual you are .May be your adoration is only a dependence you have towards that individual. Love yourself ,not somebody who might destroy you. I mean it is miserable on the off chance that actually love them. Be that as it may, then, at that point let it go. It has neither rhyme nor reason.