It's so funny when I always watched videos that the guy proposing to his girlfriend in a romantic and teary way. And here I am never experienced the same what I have seen in those videos. Every time I think of it, I feel pity that my now husband didn't propose to me to marry me. Instead, he told me we need to get married soon for some purpose. Lucky for those women that their husband to be proposed them in a beautiful and unexpected way. I even got married without a ring in my fingers. Sometimes, I will question myself If I am worthy to propose or not.
My other friend got married and their marriage is so beautiful wearing beautiful white gown, while me got married and wearing white pants and winter jacket on. Is there something wrong with me that my partner not treating me like a special one? I would wish to get married again and experienced those beautiful wedding gowns and a ring in my finger.