Sometimes we can't just change who we are and try to take what we can't change ,dislike or hate about ourselves in our strides and that's what I try to do.I don't focus on the impossible.
I dislike or hate the fact that I don't socialize enough with people ,I get bored with people easily and just want to be alone and I have huge phobia for crowd. I hate to be in the midst of too many people. I'm not entirely antisocial but at the same time don't feel too comfy when with many people.
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know what I want, one minutes I feel like being with friends and get there,not spending more than some minutes I feel like going away and being on my own.I like to socialize all the same but the problem is always about spending time with people I wish I could just change this aspect of me